Saturday, June 30, 2007

on dependance

i totally forgot to write this blog when i originally thought to, around monday.
but anyway...

Last sunday at DEC the worship leader, Chris Clough (who by the way is pretty awesome... just like every other chris i know) had the whole church do this thing.

In front of every seat there was a little piece of paper that said, "Depend on Me" on it.
He told everyone to take it and whatever's troubling you, or whatever you have uncertainty about, fears, doubts, etc, and write it on the back of the paper.
Then we folded them so we could read the "depend on me" part.

The point of the exercise was to remind us that no matter what the problem is, no matter what's bothering you or going on in your life, no matter how big or small, we can all Depend on God for it.
This is the guy that created the universe, and set into motion each of our lives, knows how its gonna end, and could tell you everything you've ever done-- the least we can do is trust Him with our petty problems. If you live for God and trust that he'll take care of you, you dont have to worry about much of anything... "let the world worry about the world" and such.
food for thought.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

sunburn

we all got sunburns at the uturn carwash on saturday.
mine is especially bad on the left side of my neck, because i stood with my left to the sun for about an hour holding a sign.
this is mostly bad because it's exactly where my bass strap rubs against my neck, on top of a bug bite in the same spot, so it better heal fast or im gonna be miserable during the launch party.

anyway, yeah. sunburns.
they're always a bummer:
you go out in the sun, overestimate your sunscreen (or your manliness), and you end up burnt.
but wait.
just a liiiiiiiittle less sun and you would have had a nice tan, right?
everyone loves getting tan, except people like stephen hawkings who is like allergic to it or something.
tans: they make you look better, they make you think your skin is healthier, they make you look like you dont
spend all your time indoors
, basically, they're good.
but burns are bad.
its interesting how the same thing (the sun) can both tan, and burn. good and bad.

okay, now you're thinking, "he's either retarded, or is trying to go somewhere with this.".
well, yes, and yes.

when you get a really bad sunburn, your skin starts to peel.
especially noses for some reason.
your nose always peels, and every time you brush against it you end up with little pieces of skin all over your hand or something, and you think to yourself, "man, im so ugly."
then the best part: when your skin peels all off, you're left with a nice layer of white, new, fresh skin underneath.
emphasis of new and fresh.

im gonna do a stretch here and try to link the sun with pressure, trials, struggles, adversities, and lame-o team-building activities commonly found at ropes courses.

if you get enough pressure/adversities to get outside your comfort zone [think: going outside], you grow. [you get a tan]
but if you get too much crap piled on top of you, you burn. when that happens, too often we think, "ow", and put on that nasty smelling moisturizing lotion that mom's had in the closet for 15 years. then we go back out into the sun and get more burned.
but i think sometimes, you have to just let it peel.
let the new skin come out, put on more sunscreen, and face your adversities with a new wind/vigor/perspective/outlook/motivational catchphrase.

and i think that's what im gonna try to do.

Sunday, May 13, 2007

on highschool

i was reading one of those lame bulletin stories that people repost all the time.
It was supposed to be this cute love-story type thing, except it was full of idiot spelling mistakes and generally lacked any style at all. reading it was a pain to the eyes.
But anyway, it talked about this highschool guy who was on the football team, and was dying of cancer.
Right before he died, he was allowed to play in the championship football game for his school and they won and blah blah, his last words were the following:
"I told you this was my dream to win the championship.. to be in the big game.. to die on this feild.. I made history."

now... obviously this isn't real.
but, i want to point something out to you.
this character's seemingly SOLE dream was to win the championship. not only that, but he thought he made history.
IDIOT.

the sad part about this story?
it reflects on that SO MANY teenagers dont know what they should be living for.
Recall Napoleon Dynamite, and Napoleon's uncle.
yeah, the dude that kept video taping himself throwing a football and getting hurt.
he talked about how if they hadn't blown their -highschool football championship-, he would have been pro or something.

now, direct yourself to your nearest yearbook.

sometimes, i hear people (girls, they're always girls) talk about Prom.
They talk about how it was such an amazing night, how they'll remember it for the rest of their lives, blah blah blah, "i felt like a princess"... and most of you people went to/will go to prom with someone who wont end up your husband or wife.
and want to know something else?
PROM ISN'T THE GREATEST NIGHT OF YOUR LIFE.
in fact, it will be/was probably among the most lame.

why do we in america put so much emphasis on highschool, what we do in highschool, dances in highschool, highschool sports, and prom?
it's totally ridiculous.
Face it. the 4 years we spend in highschool shouldn't have THAT a dramatic impact on your life for the next 25 years.
Sure, we should make good memories, grow as much as we can, and learn everything we need to, but come on!
One day, you'll have a career, which will occupy most of your time.
Your highschool friends begin to fade away the very moment you set foot on a college campus.
sports teams really shouldn't mean anything to you after you graduate. Sure, we can be fans of our city's highschool sports, but why would you spend the rest of your life thinking about how well you could have done? its over. get used to it.

i dont know, it just bugs me that american youth spends so much effort turning highschool into what they think will be the most fun years of their lives.

Saturday, March 31, 2007

my dog doesn't sit down to take a dump.

Evolution says that traits that help a species survive are the ones that are kept, and thus are the ones that contribute to evolution.

When my dog goes outside and needs to take a dump, he doesn't find a nice comfy place in some bushes and make sure he has enough privacy.
Instead, he finds a patch of ground, does a weird little squat thing, and starts pumping chunks of poo out his bum, while walking around.

Now. My dog is a domesticated animal.
He doesn't have to worry about predators coming and killing him and eating his babies.
But wild animals... they do.

They always talk about those human things that weren't humans, but weren't apes, like Neandrathols or whatever.
They were supposedly hairy short people things that walked on two legs.
I'm sure they had predators, just like animals do. Them cheetahs and lions and 3-toed sloths can do some major damage.
Did "early humans" have to sit down to take a dump?
Cause im pretty sure that if i was a Puma, and i wanted a tasty Prehistoric People Dinner, i'd go after 'em while they were on the can.
Even if they didn't have porcelain back then, they could have dug holes in the ground next to a tree or something.
And what about girls peeing sitting down?
They must have been easy targets at the dawn of human civilization.
It just doesn't make sense that we'd win the "survival of the fittest" thing with having to sit down to poop.

i dunno man.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

hark! you make me sick.

The Bible is a wonderful book.
Today, i would like to point you all to John 15:18-19. I'll be quoting in NIV.

[Jesus Speaking]"If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but i have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you."

Now, i know that theres a million different ways to interperate passages from the bible, and for each of those theres another denomination. But what i get out of this is that it should be a wakeup call. Does the world hate you?
If it doesn't, should it?
Teenagers have a really bad problem of always needing to fit in; We're not just an age group in America, but America's teenagers function under a Mob Mentality. That is to say, teenagers work as a collective.
You see things like myspace--almost every teenager in america has one. Fasion, popular words or phrases, whether or not its cool to call someone a fag-- thats all decided by the group.
When one idea starts in a highschool in San Fransisco, it spreads in a matter of weeks all the way here to New England.

So naturally, we have a need to fit in.

In my mind, what Jesus is telling us, is that we cant fit in.
A christian teenager who spends all his time trying to fit in, is going to have to shirk the responsibilities of following Christ at some point.
Sure, we can be cool. People should look at you, and think, "woah, that kids differemt."
What's that great verse thats in the MuteMath song?
oh yeah. Peculiar People.
Different.
So dont fit in.
Dont think you have to do all the crap your friends are doing.
Go against the grain.
And stop making me sick.

Thursday, January 18, 2007

on modern science

Thesis Statement:
Modern practices of science have taught humanity that it's okay to be ignorant, as long as you can justify it.


Science. Since the renneisance, Science has been about using a combination of deductive and inductive reasoning to arrive at new conclusions, new ideas, and new ways to do things.
Now, what's wrong with this, you say?
nothing, of course. We're advancing society and the human race through logical thinking.

So i was at school today, and we were talking about the differences between agnostics and atheists. We decided that an Agnostic person doesn't believe in God, but will let you prove it to you.
One of my favorite teachers ever said, "i'm an atheist. you can prove God to me, but i'll still know you're wrong."
the topic devolved into how "God cant exist because God is supposed to be compassionate, but he lets all sorts of people die all the time, and since i would help those people if i were God, it makes me better than him, therefore he cant exist. And dont even start with that original sin crap."

People rag on Christians all the time because, probably out of the fact that we know we're right and have a passion for spreading the Gospel, we're always trying to get people to believe what we do. They call us ignorant.
But by that very statement about being more compassionate than God, you might as well take a tattooist's pen and tattoo "Ignorant" on your forehead permanently.
Or if you're a three stooges fan, you might even opt to go for "Ignoramus".

You see, Mr. Knight, you basically just told me that you know nothing about God, the bible, or christianity as a whole. You really just know that you dont like what I believe, even though you dont know what it is.

We've gotten rid of God through science with PERFECTLY logical statements like that. "god cant exist because blah blah". And it makes sense, yeah.
But if you think about it, it PROVES that the one true God isn't anything that a human could have made up; everything humans do is logical. We only do something if it makes sense to us.
If a human had made up God, He would have made more sense, like the Greek gods, who behaved exactly like humans do, just with mythical powers.

at the same time, God makes perfect sense.
Why are people all over the world dieing?
its not God's fault, obviously. God is faultless.
If we go back to the fact that humans brought the entire world's pain and suffering on ourselves, and knowingly disobeyed God, what's his motive to save us anyway?
We screwed up. He isn't obligated to rescue us from our messes.
Yet he showed compassion by sending his son, his SON, to us, let us kill him, and through that we're saved from an eternaty of suffering.
logical?
no.
compassionate?
absolutely!!

You say you would get rid of all the suffering in the world?
Scenario: A man walks into Wal-Mart with a loaded AK-47, yells at everyone to get down, and then shoots everything he sees.
Suffering? Of course. People would die.
How would you prevent this, if you were God?
To me, what would make the most sense would be to make the crazy guy with the gun not so crazy.
how do you do this?
hmmm....
how about you show the ultimate sign of compassion by sending your son to die for the mr. assault rifle in everyone, and if we're smart enough to figure it out, we can accept reality, ask for forgiveness, and then realize how easy it is to not shell out a few grand on military surpluss weapons.

You cant apply the same rules of deductive reasoning from science to God.
when you can come up with proof that he doesn't exist, without any of your lame logic holes, i'll believe you. maybe.

i'll probably come back to this later after i realize how incoherant it is.

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

on pharmecuticals

one of those "hot topics" in the world these days is pharmecuticals. and i have absoutely no idea if i spelled that correctly.
but in my latest sudden urge to write a blog, i'm going to throw my own ideas on the table.

First of all, ask any left wing politician or the latest scientists, and they'll tell you straight up that modern medicine is the best its ever been, and that we're saving millions of lives through advanced knowledge of diseases and better treatment options.
my take: this is a complete load of crap.
while we certainly appear to be able to treat ailments better than ever before, it is by no means the result of better understanding of anything. Truth be told, we're just throwing so much money at the problem, that we can afford more trial-and-error than ever before, so we are able to get it right easier.

lets look at one of the most popular anti-depressant drugs in history: Prozac.
This stuff's main ingreadient is this junk called Fluxotine. It's been around since the '80s, and it's company, Eli Lilly, claims that it's helped over 50 million people.

Before i continue, allow me to give my own testimonial of the drug.
last year, this creepy phyciatrist guy put me on prozac. Not because i was depressed, he just seemed to think it would help me somehow. err...
okay... so we get it, and i start taking the stuff. a few weeks in, and, nothing's happened. so he doubles my dosage.
woo.
i was on this stuff from around may until the end of july. and it didn't do anything. i stopped taking it, and wow, i didn't notice any change.
now we go back to why he perscribed it, and the answer is....... for no reason whatsoever. Doctors perscribe stuff like prozac as if it's a "cure-all", not just for depression patients, but also for anorexia and such.
there have been countless "cure-all" drugs on the market before. Take, for example, COCAIN. Sigmund Froyd got himself addicted to it during the height of it's LEGAL popularity in the 20's. It helped everything from anorexia, depression, stomach aches, you name it. The only problem is that once you got addicted it it, obvously, you were stuck on it. and it got pricey after a while.
Of course, people finally figured this out, and it became illigal.
good.
now, back to prozac.
I'm not saying it's dangerous like coke is, but, its idiotic to treat anything like a cure-all drug.

Let's switch gears.
direct your attention to http://www.prozac.com/how_prozac/how_it_works.jsp?reqNavId=2.2
this is Prozac's official page on "how it works".
take note of how many times they use words such as "appear", "seems", and "may". just by reading their very official sounding language, you get the impression that WE DONT KNOW HOW IT WORKS. and no, we dont.
we just know that it seems to increase serritonin levels, and through testing, we know that an imbalance of serritonin seems to be a cause of depression.
and of course, treating serritonin imbalances doesn't actually cure depression, it just makes the symptoms go away.
HELLO?!
we're not making millions of people actually BETTER, we're just treating their symptoms.

King C. Gillette, guy who invented Gillette razors, had an ingenious buisiness strategy that revolved around William Painter's Crown Cork bottle cap with the idea that a Successful Invention is one that has to be purchased over and over again.
over and over again, does that remind you of all them brown translucent medicine bottles?
The pharmecutical industry is enourmous, and they get you hooked on drugs that, even though they've been through hundreds of animal and human tests, we dont even know why or how they work.
and they get you to buy them month after month!

to all you left-wing, "i have FAITH in modern medicine!!" idiots: Go Die in a Hole.
the end.
goodbye.
wit, out!

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Ecclesiastes 11:5

first off, i want everyone to know that Ecclesiastes is officially my favorite book.
maybe i'm depressing, but it's cool the way king solomon puts everything in perspective.
and for the record: that guy had a lot of time on his hands.

anyway, i didn't really have any thought to this blog, other than to point out ecclesiastes 11:5.
As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother's womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things. (NIV)
my point?
with all our science and technology today, we still don't really know how the body forms. we just know what it looks like at various stages of developments.
and we still cannot understand the work of God.
it just isn't something that the human mind can grasp.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Camp

By Your blood, I am saved
The old is gone, I give it all away.
By Your blood, I am saved
the new has come, I'll never be the same.


that song really hit me hard.













that is all.

Sunday, January 22, 2006

What is the world comming to?

Ok. first, i just wanna say that i'm no theologan, nor do i have any idea what i'm talking about.
k then. Anyone can tell you, and if you don't listen to anyone, just look around for yourself, that the world is doing downhill. People are killing each other, drugs are everywhere, and no one cares about their fellow man. Basically, everyone now adays is a selfish retard.
For the past 30 years or something, people have been trying to figure out why this is happening. The issues are getting steadily worse. No longer in America can a 12-year old do what they might do in the 50's. Youth in the '50's did dangerous things like play with toxic chemicals, launch off home-made rockets, play with high voltage electricity, and actually touch mercury in science class (luucky!).
The main reason why you can't do fun stuff anymore as a kid is because people found out that its not good for your health. But the other reasons are mainly because of people who like to sue people for no reason. Its like the people who sue mc. donnalds because the coffee is hot, or that idiot lady who put a guy's finger in her Wendy's chille so that she could sue the company, and cost the buisiness some 32 million bucks.

This here is a prime example of these selfish retards i mentioned earlier. No one cares about other people, the environment, the law, or anything other than themselves. If they wanna do drugs, they do drugs. If they wanna go kill someone, they go kill someone.
So why this deterioration of caring? why is apathy such a hot thing now adays? Well, if you ask me, Science can take some of the blame.
In order for me to explain this, let me go into detail about just what science *is*.

Ever since Isaac Newton, Science has been a refined, methodical practice. The idea is that you use what you know as fact, use evidence that you gather, and come up with new ideas, which can later be turned into fact. See, by nature, scientists are the ultimate skeptics.Nothing is true until it is proven.
For the past few centuries, Scientists have been doing their best to debunk religion. And a lot of their debunking has worked. As a result, more and more people are giving up the idea of religion, and turning into aethiests, or just not thinking about anything to do with theology.
So with many ideas and practices that people have studied for a few thousthand years given skeptisism from science, people are becoming more and more in favor of there not being anything out there other than what science can prove.There is one big problem with this, however.

Different people think different things about religion. One common consensus is that religion, whether purposful or not, has done a great job of keeping order. Whether it was the Greeks who feared that if they stepped out of line, the gods would crush them, or Catholicism, where simply the structure of the church keeps people organized, religion has played a big part in the order of civilization.

So now science comes along and decides that religion can't be correct unless you can prove it with physical evidence. So people stop beleiving in religion.

With religion starting to fade away, so does the order and structure that it brings with it. With no order, and nothing to beleive in except what the scientists decide to say is true, people have no reason *not* to go around killing people. After all, since there's no life after death, you might as well enjoy life, right?

yeah. sure. whatever man.

i most likely missed by several million miles on this one, but its just what i was thinking on my ride home from Church. :D?!

Monday, January 9, 2006

Guess What Everyone?!

ok. so here goes.
As i was getting onto the bus this morning to go to school, as usual i said "good morning" to the bus driver. (yeah, i know, i'm a total drip.) anyway, for some reason, i said it louder than a hoarse whisper, and i thought i heared a hint of cheer in my voice. this is odd, as i usually don't have much cheer, even if i'm cheery.
So as i'm sitting down, i started thinking, as i always do, as the bus continued on it's route.
And then it hit me, like the way Orlando Bloom hit those orcs with his arrows in the LOTR movies:
I'm happy.
At first, it didn't seem right. What teenager in his right mind would sit down and think to himself that he's actually happy? but after a while, i realized that surely it must be true.

I think it's interesting that if you ask most teenagers today if they're happy, they'll probably tell you, "yeah, i'm happy", although they're really not.
The part that i find interesting is that many kids have nothing to be unhappy about. Granted, especially in a place like somersworth where 50% or so of the kids are comming from broken homes and are on drugs half the time, many people *do* have something to be unhappy about. But a lot of times we'll look at a situation, and if we're not especially happy, the immidiate reaction is that you're unhappy. Its as if we've pushed contentedness off the map.

Anyway, whether or not i'm right about anything, i'd just like to point out that the one thing i have going for me is that i'm happy. and not depressed.