I realized today one thing that I am learning at work, and that my experiences at church are reinforcing. I am learning to be less passionate and to invest myself less in the things that I do for other people. I can't be emotionally attached to the work I do at my job, because that work doesn't belong to me. I could spend a week working hard on a project and have a manager change his mind or coworkers change directions, and just like that the labor and effort disappears. If I were to pour myself into what I do for work, I would put myself through constant heartache.
I'm going to try be more conscious of this concept. I cannot be attached to work that I do for other people; I need to be able to give it away completely.
As i've grown up, i've realized that i can't trust anything to memory- moments, events, and especially the unspoken thoughts of my mind slip away easier than 10w-30. This blog isn't about me talking to the nameless nothingness of the internet. It's about being available for me to stumble upon if i ever forget who i am.
